This post contains very mild sexual content that some may find offensive.
It’s the most natural thing on earth. It’s what your body was meant to do. You don’t have to learn it. You will feel it. You will know it. It will be good.
That’s what Aunt Angeno told me.
Aunt Angeno was my father’s sister; my caretaker aunt. She was the person charged with teaching me what my parents and my school couldn’t. She taught me about my history and my future. She taught me about life. She taught me how to be a woman.
“Can you hear me?” I whisper into the night. “Aunty, can you hear me?”
I am desperate for her. I need her to rise from the grave and to undo time. I need her to tell me it’s not the most natural thing on earth. It’s not what my body was meant to do. I feel it, I know it, but I can’t do it.
Hi. My name is Claire. I have vaginismus.